The Ditzy Diaries: Happy Little Accidents
An introduction to me, my column, and the men I call mistakes
Life is full of mistakes and happy little accidents. I’m convinced that your 20s is spent fine-tuning the formula for avoiding one and making light of the other. What I’m still trying to figure out is how forgiving Orlando is to a young queer person just trying to adult.
So far, being independent is full of “happy little accidents.” I’ve accidentally said yes too many times at the gay club. That usually ends up with me joining an after, or an after-after party. Sometimes it ends up with me enjoying one too many drinks.
I’ve found that many of the mistakes I’ve experienced in Orlando come in male form.
The guy I went home with last weekend? Mistake. Mauricio, who you’ll meet later? Mistake. Believing a guy that says they’re in an open relationship? Big mistake. Telling you about it? Hmm…
And I’ll take accountability for making the mistakes. Including the ones I make swiping my credit card at Bloomingdale’s.
As a mostly safe party girl, I feel that the difference between the two should be clearly defined. But as a mostly mature 25-year-old, I know it’s not always that simple.
Despite my constant happy little accidents and last weekend’s mistakes, my art and passion is intentional.
I find artistic expression everywhere: my all-black capsule wardrobe, the sunflowers around my apartment, the way I browse the Pottery Barn clearance section.
But writing is my most vulnerable form of expression. Just like a good film or a good album, it allows me to process what’s going on in my head. Because all we see is a ditzy person stumbling into The Hampton Social or Sixty Vines, on the hunt for truffle fries and the perfect spicy skinny margarita.
The Ditzy Diaries is a reminder that we’re all still figuring it out. It’s okay to live in your own little world. It’s okay to not know how to share your feelings out loud. It’s okay to be messy, to make mistakes.
So I hope the mess looks a little less lonely from where you’re sitting.
stay messy,
